As Night Falls…

In the stillness of night and early morning, that's when I'm at peace with myself and with the world. Everything is so quiet and tranquil. The calming silence so still, it's almost as if I can reach out and grab in my hand. But no matter how hard I try to grab it, it always escapes my grasp.

Wisp's of air so fragile so endearing to the touch yet so brittle. So liberating yet it's something that can only be felt by one when the soul is vulnerable and completely naked to the world. But many a times, we block out many things. People, feelings, emotions just so we can feel safe…

We become hardened and toughened because in this world harm is rampant. But in doing so, we hurt countless people along the way. We push them aside; brush them off, yell at them. Yet most of them come in peace, willing to help us, even with the intention of sharing what's making them vexed about life. But because of the lies and hurts we've been through, we misjudge them and perceive them as a threat. I admit. I am like that. I know I have hurt people and I'm terribly sorry.
I find it hard to be completely honest with people. Not that I don't want to, but because, well, just because? The only time I can really be honest with myself is at night. When everyone's asleep and the harsh glare of the world is absent.

The calming night air permeates my soul and releases me from the things I fear of. Free from the clutches of fear and totally enabling me to be myself.
For those few hours, everything will be alright. It is these few precious hours that I have for myself and away from everyone else. And in those reminiscing hours, time seems to stop and memories return. And that's when I feel like I am experiencing everything once again.

I know that all my efforts to bring back the past will be futile. Everything that has past will stay that way. Nevertheless, even all I hold dear now will eventually lose its existence in my world. Even materialistic possessions like rings and necklaces, things that reflect their true dazzling side when placed in your hand will eventually fade. The only things that will stay are the memories that we have shared. And they will stay on forever in our hearts where no one can touch.

No man can taint the moments that we have spent with the people around us. Memories may fade away, they never really disappear. It is just hiding and waiting for the right moment to resurface again.
If you ever happen to see me at night with my eyes shut, be it sitting on a bench, or lying under the stars. Just leave me be for those few hours and I will be eternally grateful to you.

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